Journal Entry #648

May 5^th, 2012

We are all looking for that magic formula to life, to answer those big questions and to navigate our way through our daily activities. We all want happiness and to be successful. Each one of us will determine this in a different way but I do believe I have found the secret well I call it that because people love secrets but really it is just something as a species I see us continually failing at. Understanding this one concept I do believe will change so much for us.

I see this in my daily discussions, in personal relationships and all over the world. What it leads to I do believe is the basis for so many of our conflicts on every scale imaginable.

Are you ready?

I will personalize this but the idea is that if everyone adopted this it would open the doors for us all.

I am willing to admit and accept that I can be wrong on anything.

You would not believe how many people that will not accept this. It doesn’t matter their belief system in fact most belief systems demand that you cannot accept this which is the flaw and the control mechanism. They have built in punishments for doing so and are well crafted to take away the option.

If I follow my motto of seeking the truth always then I must do this even though I could be wrong on this as well. Over the last 2 years the acceptance of this has proven to me to be the one thing we need to do because when we do we actually break down all the walls and open ourselves up to the truths in life that we all seek but many think the have found.  

This does not mean we do not accept certain things as true based on the available information but we realize theta things can change. Change is a constant that has proven itself beyond a reasonable doubt at this time so to not accept this is to ignore reality as we know it.

The objection to the admittance of being wrong is vast and sometimes hostile. When it comes to a personal belief that someone accepts as an absolute they will adamantly object. This has lead to so much misery in the world and so much pain when the simple acceptance of this will prevent much of the harm we inflict upon ourselves. We accept that we live in a world of uncertainty and I do believe that is a good thing.

We all seek the truth and yet so few are willing to even define it, here is my definition and I certainly could be wrong.

Truth- all that is, all that is real, all that is part of reality and all that is factual.

How we determine what is true based on a shared accepted point of reference we call reality. – Verification through the method of the scientific process, reason and logic.

I believe that we cannot verify anything 100% as doubt can always be cast however small so we work on a system of probabilities, best guess and beyond reasonable doubt to
say that we know something is true.

We should never believe anything in the unknown to be true until it is verified as known. We can speculate, imagine and engage in fantasy thinking but must always come back to our base of reality. The unknown should not be used as an argument to dispute the known or another unknown as this is just pure speculation.

For every question there can only be one answer that is true.

Once something is known it is no longer up for debate there is only acceptance or ignorance.

There is only truth based on my definition.

The truth will remain the truth no matter what we think our try and do to it, we are powerless over it and yet it is what gives us our power.

Something is either true or it is not even if we do not know if it is true or not.

This frees our minds to offer the most fantastic answer ever “ I DON’T KNOW” which is the answer on the vast majority of questions we ask and I am ok with this. I will qualify it by adding this “I don’t know but let’s see if we can find out”.

Now everything we do takes on a new meaning as our minds become open like when we were children when all things seemed full of wonder and awe. We no longer need to fight over who is right and who is wrong because we all know we could all be wrong so we are willing to take the best guess.

This is what science offer us and the method is sound;

Here is the Scientific method so we are clear;

1. We often first make an observation of something that has happened.

2. We then consider what caused this thing to happen by posing an educated uess or hypothesis.

3. we can then make predictions about what we should expect to see if our hypothesis is correct.

4. If necessary, experimentation and data collection may be conducted.

5. Further observation is necessary, which will lead to 3 possible outcomes..

a If we observe that our data positively supports our prediction, then we have hypothesis confirmation..(at least for now)

b. If we observe that our data do not support our prediction, then we have hypothesis falsification and we may be forced to either give up or modify our hypothesis.

c. If there are simply not enough data to decide either way, then we suspend judgement.

6. Finally we need to consider whether there are any other competing hypothesis that provide an equally plausible or likely explanation for our observation. If there are we need to ask ourselves which seems more reasonable. If there are no others, then we may decide to tentatively to accept the hypothesis based on the currently available information.

From Christopher DiCarlo…Phd Bioethics & Philosophy..

Like I have said the opposition I get to this is amazing but when one accepts this then we have great discussions. The one I like the best is when I am told I always think I am right usually just after I have said I can be wrong on anything…

Here is an amazing example from a page of devout Christians called Born Again in India. The answer to my question is simple but it challenges the very concept of the belief and to deny the belief is considered a sin so to accept the obvious answer is blasphemy. What a great trap devised by someone long ago.

Gary David Currie

If I told you I was god and I was here to test you most would fail the test…How would you know if I was god or not?

Jawahar Peter…… HolySpirit in us says you are not yet bornagain. so u can be god but not God. disobedient angels lucipher etc have become gods and make u god. But JESUS is God incarnate to save us from the clutches of god of this world and make us BornAgain to give us Gods image back.

Jawahar Peter……… u should know the difference between only “God” of abraham jacob issac moses and the gods of heathen like baal baalaji .

Gary David Currie….. Jawahar Peter you have failed the test once again. your arrogance has blinded you..to those I have sent to you. Your path has become poisoned by your
condemnation of others that is my job not yours. you are my servant but you are playing god and you must stop. Go back and follow the path of Christ, be humble and give to those in need without telling them what they need as I will do that. You shall reap what you sow I have sent a humble man who serves me well and you have done nothing but condemn him he exhibits what I want and follows my path and you have strayed far from the path. Accpet him where he is at not where you are. Humble yourself before your god and pray for forgiveness in your arrogance this I command of you. Break my command and pay the price Jawhar….

Jawahar Peter …My God is JESUS. is JESUS your God? many times u rejected CHRIST and so i refuse to buy your commands which are from lucipher. I am washed in the blood of Christ. are u washed in the blood of Christ? if u say yes then i can consider your suggestion but if you reject Jesus as your Lord u have lost the opportunity to correct me. i cant listen to people whose god is Satan 2 cor 4:4

Gary David Currie …..YOU DARE QUESTION ME……………..YOU HAVE FAILED AND WILL BE PUNISHED ACCORDINGLY FOR YOUR ARROGANCE AND DISBELIEF. THIS IS MY FINAL WORD UNTIL YOU REPENT OF YOUR ARROGANCE.

Derek William Helberg….. Jawahar, come on now and get off of your soap box. Can you not see that this jackal is trying to bait you, the same jackal that seems to have no friends but hangs out on this page begging for attention. Dust your feet off of this pretender and move on, it is not your duty to argue, the Holy Spirit will have his day.

Jawahar Peter…. satan will have so many final words. he is deceiver and thief. But Jesus love is eternal He gives chance till last breadth. dont loose/forfeit Jesus grace by
your arrogance. i have lot of problems in my person i am the worst sinner forgiven by Jesus. its not my goodness or any thing. despite my shortcomings Jesus loves me. i am also ready to accept you provided you dont deny grace of Lord Jesus. i am trying to love u a fraction of what Jesus loved me. but i cant condone the atheism spirit or obstinate person in you.

So the obvious answer is….. I wouldn’t know….. but this person would have lost their mind if they had to admit that. It would shake the very foundation of all they held as true and brought into question everything, I see this as a good thing they did not.

“The moment we are willing to look into nothing is the moment we will be willing to see everything.”

I hope one day all can see the power in this statement I offer. I am not the first to see this and I hope I am not the last.. We don’t know what we don’t know. This is probably the most important post I have written but will mostly be ignored. I have planted a seed that will germinate and bear fruit one day.

Gary David Currie

Seek the truth always

Gary David Currie

Journal Entry #647

April 30^th, 2012

Life is like gardening;

You plant seeds.

You water and nurture their growth.

Some seeds do not germinate.

As they grow some are consumed by disease and rot.

Some succumb to the elements.

Some are healthy along the way but do not grow into maturity.

The ones that make it bear the fruits of your labor.

We do not know which ones will bear those fruits so we plant many seeds and nurture them all the best we can but if we did not plant those seeds in the first place our garden will surely fail.

So plant your seeds daily as the gardening never ends, make sure each seed planted is done with as much love and care as you can offer and after you have done your best to cultivate the plants concentrate on the ones that will bear the best fruit.

Gary David Currie

Every day I try and plant my seeds as I take each opportunity to reach out to others. This not only enhances my life but I do believe offers an opportunity for others to plant their seeds. Some of those seeds that we have cultivated for a very long time succumb to disease and yes this is painful but there is nothing one can do beyond trying to nurture them back to health. They must want to as well or else we are fighting a losing battle/ I am not saying just give up on those but only do what you can and hope they win the battle.

In the meantime I continue to always plant seeds, always as this is the process that never ends. Make sure that each seed you plant has the best opportunity to grow.

Seek the truth always

Gary David Currie

Journal Entry #646

April 25th, 2012 

Today I read something on the internet that I very much disagreed with, posted it with my objections and I was going to write a post about it. I offered some of my thoughts on it and got this amazing response. To me this is more important right now but I will write about it later.

This really is the essence of everything for me and to see a young man like Keanu take it and run with it was a special moment for me.

I dedicate this blog post to his thoughts on the matter and I salute him..

My post;

Gary David Currie

Ok I am going to say something that most will disagree with and that is fine but I will say it anyways. I am not judging and this is my personal view on this.

 My entire life I have watched people give up in relationships from marriages, families to friendships when things did not turn out the way someone planned they cut and run. I think this is bullshit. If we so easily give up then what is the point of starting these relationships. It all takes work everyday and shit happens beyond our control
but the idea is to not give up during these times because that is when it really counts.

like I said this is just my view.. I would go to hell and back for those I love and I would not hesitate. I would fight for them to the end with all I have. For me my life would be empty without this commitment. I cannot control what others do only what I will do and that is what I will do….

I will do this because if I do not I can never ask this of anyone else when I need it and because I see this as the most important part of who I am. This is my integrity, my personal responsibility and what I hold myself accountable to.

https://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=1587204931&ref=tn_tnmn#!/notes/keanu-allridge/rant-on-appreciation/416428911720608

Rant on Appreciation.

by Keanu Allridge onWednesday, April 25, 2012 at 7:57pm ·

Part of the inspiration for this rant came from my friend Gary, who posted a status about his thoughts on commitment and appreciation of those closest to him. He’s a man who, like everyone else, has faced ups and downs in his life. But what sets him apart from a great many people is the way he is fueled by his love for his family — specifically, his two sons. This kind of dedication is beautiful to me, and, I think, sorely lacking in American society today (Gary is Canadian).

What this leads me to first is how I view my ideal relationship, whether it be romantic, platonic, familial, so forth. One of my most basic guiding principles when it comes to relationships is that you should only take as much as you’re willing to give; e.g. if someone close to you often performs little gestures for you to show you they care, you should reciprocate. For me it all comes down appreciation, which, in turn, is connected to loyalty. These two things form the basis of what I believe to be love. I know that I love someone when I would go out of my way to help them if they needed me, whether or not it was inconvenient. Such is love’s nature, I think. No matter what, though, appreciation is right at the core of it.

And this leads me to appreciation generally. I make it a point to try to spend just a little time each day being aware of how incredibly fortunate I am to live in the country I do, in the time that I do, and to have the friends and family I do. I may not like everything about this country or the people I share it with, but it’s a hell of a lot better than living in Wartornistan. Just the same, I may not agree with my friends and family on every little thing, but I love them regardless, because they would do what they could to help me if I needed it, just as I would for them.

But what I spent the majority of my time thinking about was my love for all of the now deceased family members whom I shall never meet. The ones I am descended from. I love them for all of the hardship they endured over the course of their lives so that I could be alive today. Unfortunately, I don’t know much about my family history from either side. But what I do know is that I am descended from black slaves and Jews.

I am descended from people who were stolen from their homelands by Bible-toting savages and sold as cattle. People who were forced to work in fields from the early hours of the dawn till the late hours of the night. People who were treated worse than dogs; whose backs were ripped and ravaged by the sharp cracking of whips. This country was built on the backs of these people, just as it was built on the graves of the victims of genocide. The blood, sweat, and tears of these people gave rise to the country I live in today, and I love them for it.

I am descended from people who lived their whole lives in a country that had never exactly been friendly to those of their ethnicity and religion (as many countries aren’t all over the world). These people were among those who were eventually labeled as rats and driven into the gutter. These people were forced into cramped, disease-ridden hellholes. They were shot in the streets, sent to death camps, and systematically gassed. They were exterminated like vermin. But my family escaped that, fleeing to a strange country with an entirely different culture. As a result of their actions, I am alive. And I love them for it.

Sometimes the people responsible for our existence mess up. Sometimes they screw up so royally that it can be nigh on impossible to forgive them. Some of us were and are constantly supported and loved, while some of us know only abuse from them. But no matter what, their choices have played an incredibly huge role in who we are today. Being dragged through the dirt sucks major balls, but it doesn’t have to break you. It can only rob you of your dignity if you let it.

And so we have to move forward, accepting the past for what it is and looking forward to the future. We have to let appreciation come full circle, from the most distant relatives to the closest friends, and finally back to ourselves. After all, if we don’t love ourselves, how are we to love anyone else?

Again Keanu I salute you..

Seek the truth always

Gary David Currie

Journal Entry #645

April 24^th, 2012

This is a dilemma, when do we give up, throw in the towel and say enough is enough?

I would say never but is it wise to never say never? This will of course be up to the individual and who am I to say that they should not give up. I will offer two qualifiers as a guide;

1.  The goal should be realistic.

2. The goal should be attainable.

Once I have used these guidelines I personally am like a pit-bull and it will take a lot for me to give up. I may appear to give in to a situation but that does not mean I give up. If it is worthy I will pursue it.

When it comes to the ones we love we see the real dilemma. When do we give up on them? If my son was in trouble half way around the world would I stop at some point and not help him. I really could not live with myself if I did this. I am in this situation now with another loved one as that person has given up so should I?

I realize I have no control over what they do nor do I want any but I see the situation taking place for all the wrong reasons and to give up on them at this point is difficult. I will not chase and I will not have the illusion that I can change anything as this must come from them but I made a commitment in so many ways and if I give up on them I give up on my commitment to them. So what kind of a person am I if I do not honour my commitments even if they do not honour theirs?

Without our word our integrity then who are we…..

www.youtube.com/watch?v=kZlXWp6vFdE

Powerful Inspirational true story…Don’t give up!

I would not hesitate to do this for my sons and others I love and I would hope we all feel this way.

I get told all the time that I should just let it go but they are not me and I must live with myself.

At the end of the day as I put my head on my pillow I must be happy with my choice and for me it is not giving up on what I value. I would hope that there are those who would not give up on me as well.

So when do we give up? I believe if you valued it in the first place then the answer should be never if it is based on the 2 parameters I offered. We must have hope in life or else life is not worth living.

The moment we give up may very well be the moment we should not have given up..

Seek the truth always

Gary David Currie

Journal Entry #644

April 23^rd, 2012

My mother and I do love her is not up to par on the use of computers. She tries but has a hard time. If you were not raised on this it is a challenge. She has not seen the pictures from our move from Ontario to British Columbia so I told her I would post some on my blog as she knows how to get to this.

So these pics and there will be a lot are for my mother and anyone else to enjoy.

My journey with my son as we moved to start over; Click on any picture to enlarge it mom and then click the X on the picture to close it.

And this is why I moved Mom.

I hope you enjoyed this small sample Mom. I love you and thanks for everything.  You rock..

Seek the truth always

Gary David Currie

Journal Entry #643

April 18^th, 2012

My personal belief on god is this and I have said it many different times in many different ways. “ I don’t know”.

Truly this should be the answer for all and to pretend that you do know and have special access to the all knowing and then act on a set of rules  from this all knowing  entity is simply insane but many do engage in this insanity.

I will focus on a discussion I had with a person who started a group called “Born Again” from India. It seems that India and Africa is where Christianity is growing unchecked and completely unbalanced and this is where it becomes dangerous.

I will let the discussion speak for itself as it will be my best evidence for those I believe are thinking clearly to see what I am presenting. The righteous mind is a dangerous mind.

I will post the link to their page where they have amassed big numbers and continue to grow.

9,230 members…

https://www.facebook.com/#!/groups/bornign

Born Again page on Face Book.

Now the person I am talking with is the founder of this group and actually invited me to join as they said so they could save me from my atheism and show all what devil atheism truly is. I like to play in the lions den and not preach to the choir so I accepted.

My original post and I even took out the swearing for them;

Gary David Currie

 I don’t know why but I get so mad and frustrated at how we treat each other but I do. There is no need for any of the terrible things we do to each other. I get so disgusted at humanity. We sit back and do nothing while so many suffer. What a pathetic species we are because we know better and do nothing. We continually hurt those we love and
ignore those we care nothing for.

We squabble over politics, religion and money, we engage in pathetic drama and self pity when all we have to do is just treat each other good and all this will not matter.

I am so frustrated…….Our apathy will be our undoing……

Jawahar Peter ……….when people deny their creator they become curse to other fellow humans. but they never repent of their atheism.

Classic line

Gary David Currie……….. Nice attitude. Sad for a god to be this way. By the way sounds like I care about humanity more than you do as you only care about your god. I am a human being first so quit with all this atheist labeling. There are no sides here. I actually thought you cared about your fellow man.

Jawahar Peter ….by acting kind hearted atheist, you create so many other atheists like you who can’t team up JESUS lovers. so many Islamic terrorists don’t allow Christian aid workers to reach fellow humans. u American atheists by your foolish ideology deny JESUS love on cross and resurrection to encourage Russian atheist leaders
to support Muslim terrorists.

Jawahar Peter … instead of criticising genuine love of JESUS and genuine Born again believers you can 1. believe in Lord Jesus and be Born Again 2. help us to criticise false infiltrated Satan agents like Benny Hinn Todd Bently who like parasites eat Christian aid money. then i can agree u are real human with kind heart ,until that time u are a hypocrite justifying your atheism which indirectly creating suffering for starvation deaths in Africa and elsewhere.

Gary David Currie……Jawahar Peter you know nothing about me. Ask Bappa Mukherjee who I am. I am not even American…You condemn me so easily..

Jawahar Peter  …you are not yet Born Again, that’s for sure. John2:25 JESUS did not need anyone to testify about man, for Jesus knew what was in man. it doesn’t matter u are American or not. you are human atheist denying Gods love on the cross thus dead in sin and are deceived by Satan. I pity u more than those starving in skin and bones. Many Born Agains were persecuted with hunger and perished in flesh but they are rich in Spirit. But u deny spirit and I pity u. but my prayer is u must be Born Again and be
our brother and co worker of Lord Jesus Holy Spirit to eradicate/minimise human suffering. if u don’t join Gods plans get delayed.

Gary David Currie….. See wrong again I did that years ago. Too many assumptions my friend..You think you are so righteous in you preaching and condemning others if you are what it means to be a Christian no thanks…

Jawahar Peter  …… Gary I could be wrong, its possible i am self righteous. but why don’t you become better than me by accepting Jesus as your Lord and saviour and then help so many starving people? Why you wanted to remain as a branded atheist and still wanted to appear good/righteous to others by posting about starvation deaths and thus appear as” LAST prostitutes and tax collectors and atheists are better than FIRST Pharisees and scribes “

Derek William Helberg …..Jawahar, have you not let the Spirit of our Lord guide you? Paul clearly writes in 1 Corintians 5: 11-13 for us not to judge those outside of
christianity. Matthew 10:14 and Mark 6: 11 tells us to dust off our shoes and walk away from those who do not welcome you, or listen to your words.

Gary David Currie  ….. Jawahar Peter you branded me an atheist as if it is some sort of disease. You cannot change me as I cannot change you so accept me where I am and see the good in me as I try to with you. Remember you asked me into this group I did not ask to join. I am a human being first and foremost and when it comes to Jesus or god my answer is simple ” I don’t know”. If you think you know then good for you but stop acting like the devil you think I am and telling me how right you are and how wrong I am. To be honest I am more like Jesus then you have ever shown you are.. Just stop all this judging nonsense.

Jawahar Peter…… you yourself told that you were an atheist. But Jesus paid the price on the cross or atheists also. I was also a foolish atheist for some time in my life. But I
confessed my sin and accepted Jesus as my Lord.

Jawahar Peter ….. its true Gary I invited you, so that me an ex-atheist can help a friend to come out of atheism. if u don’t like me or this group u are welcome to unjoin the group.

Gary David Currie …. Yes I am an atheist but only because I have no good reason to believe in god but that is my choice.. Like I said I concentrate on the good in someone not what you disagree with. Jawahar Peter you called me the devil and labeled me evil. What right do you have to do this. I fight for the rights of all every day. I look for the good in all and I champion the truth so how does this make me the devil.

Who are you to judge me? Leave this to your god and he and I will take care of our business… Like I said you know very little about me.

Gary David Currie…… If you don’t like me in this group you are welcome to delete me. Who do you think you are telling me that you are right and I am wrong? Let god do this not you…You job is not his job..

Gary David Currie…. By the way you missed the entire message of my post here in the beginning…So what does this say about you. Is this not common ground for us to work from?

Jawahar Peter…….. JESUS alone can be our common ground. We must be Born again. let the dead bury their starving dead but we must raise the spiritual dead atheists back to life with resurrection power

Jawahar Peter ….my privilege being Born Again is I am Gods co-worker and I am His child.

Jawahar Peter…. me missing your message is of not much importance compared to you missing JESUS.

and this says it all

Jawahar Peter …those who sit back and don’t worry about the suffering of Lord Jesus on the cross are of more cruel in heart than those who do lip service for African starving deaths.

Gary David Currie …. Actually I am professing the message of Jesus and you don’t even see it which is the sad part. The only thing we disagree on is the supernatural stuff. You are so wrapped up in your beliefs you cannot see beyond them in any way..

Jawahar Peter….. u believe a pseudo-Jesus ,not Born of Virgin, not suffered on cross and hence not resurrected. being an atheist for now you have all the beliefs of new age, Hindu, Islam, Buddhist assumptions. but to be our friend You must consider the Jesus who suffered on cross for your , mine and all humanity sin and rose again from
death. without that foundation your claim to further Jesus message is invalid.

Gary David Currie… sorry that you friendship requires I bow to your ways. I give my friendship for other reasons.. Really sad what you profess my friend and not Christ like at all..

Jawahar Peter ….apart from Christ all reasons are meaningless and temporary. we are eternal beings ,should talk eternal things. JESUS said we must be Born Again. why don’t u be more Christ like than me by being Born Again?

Gary David Currie….  Again you assume so much. I did this long ago when I was young. I have been baptized and according to the faith once done I am set for life. Also I know far more about your faith than you do I just chose to met others where they are at like Jesus would. You really are so wrapped up in what you believe you cannot see anything anyone else says. That is sad to me. This is what is wrong with Christianity today everything you are professing Jawahar Peter.. Very sad

This person is so deep in the chosen fantasy, so deluded that they cannot for a second even step outside of it to even listen to hear another. This is truly dangerous especially if they get a little power and influence behind them. This will lead to tragic consequences.

And this is an example of why I speak out to thwart the danger as best I can before it has tragic consequences. This is why we all must speak out.

Seek the truth always

Gary David Currie

Journal Entry #642

April 17^th, 2012  

Ok sometimes I think I am very clever and often realize later I am not but this time I think I nailed it.

Thought I would put a twist on the find Waldo concept and created Find Jesus.

Click on the image to enlarge it for a better experience.

‎“Find Jesus” How hard can it be? Now I made this so if you are stuck I will verify he is in there.

Please feel free to share and let others find Jesus.

Now the very idea of using the name Jesus changes everything as the perceived implications will cloud peoples judgement right away.

- Is this just a puzzle and does the word Jesus really matter?

- Did I really put a Jesus in there? I told people to take my word for it so will they?

- Will you think I am lying if you cannot find Jesus as one person did?

- Is there a hidden meaning behind all of this?

- If you find Jesus and then say I found Jesus what does this mean?

Some comments;

lol i cant find him, but then again I never have been able to….

     Gary David Currie….. he is there just keep looking you will find him if you truly want to..

Wait is this a test? Lol am I supposed to realize he’s really NOT there on my own? Lol

yep, I cant find him, but then again, I don’t have the faith to find him…

I found him!!! haha hallelujah

he’s next to Waldo…

Well I can’t find him…… And I think its cause I don’t want to.

ok, there is no image of Jesus in this picture…

That was my assumption Jason. Can’t find what isn’t there.

    Gary David Currie… I guarantee you Jesus is in there.. You have my word..

    Gary David Currie… You have my word an image of Jesus.. But will you take my word is the        question…

Well if I continue to take your word and still can’t “find” him then that tells me, either I’m blindly following, or I’m just following the blind.

I think you get the idea. Did I make this to prove a point and if I did what would that point be? Is it just a puzzle, a game or is there a deeper meaning behind all of this. I will let you be the judge.

Let me know if you find Jesus and then don’t forget to tell everyone else that you found Jesus and show them so they can find Jesus on their own. After all where is the fun in spoiling it?

Seek the truth always

Gary David Currie

Journal Entry #641

April 15^th, 2012

Well so far this has been one hell of a ride with a roller coaster of emotions. My blog a few weeks ago hit the 500,000 views mark in  about 2 years and this is exciting as I was told by those I knew and those I have met along the way that I would be a voice in the wilderness. At first I thought they were correct that very few would value the ideal of truth. Most do not but I find those who do along the way.

My blog has been viciously attacked and I have lost over 100 posts due to a constant barrage of viruses. It seems I have touched a nerve in some as this has been a concentrated effort specifically aimed at me.

I have been insulted, threatened, I have lost work, friends and loved ones all due to professing the truth.

The price I have paid for this is high but as I decided when I was very young truth must be what I seek and I profess this to all. I have lost loved ones especially the one I love the most because of who I am. Now there is more to it than this but valuing the truth is a quality many do not like as it forces them to face their lies and fears and most do not want to do this. Hell it is hard for me as well but to lie is the real cost as the lies will always catch up with you and if you have a foundation built on lies it will surely crumble.

It was about 5 months ago that my life changed forever and the ride has been incredibly rough. I have no choice but to face the reality of the situation and do my best to move on. I have had so many thoughts running through my mind, so much to write about but I wanted to wait until my emotions were a little clearer before I got back into my blog, my art and my music. I have had to completely start my life over after having lost most of what I owned and valued but I still have the most important things and that is what I focus on. I cannot change how others view me and I can only continue to stand for what I see as right and worthy in life and hope that truth and what is right prevails. This feels like a hopeless desire at times but it is what I must do.

Why is it so hard for people to value the truth? The cost of not doing this is higher than if you do not.

I remember when I was 8 years old my parents got divorced. This was a terrible time in my life and the pain of this still resonates with me. They also were excommunicated from the Catholic Church and this puzzled me. I think it was at this moment that I wanted to seek the truth and have been doing so ever since as I watched so many in my life treat each other in awful ways. I swore that I would always try and do what is right and value the truth at this time. I saw people lying to each other and the cost this brought about and did not want a life like this. Now I can only control my life on this and realized that others will still do this. I guess over time I developed an oversized sense of personal responsibility and although I believe it has served me well it has threatened so many along the way. This is initially what attracts people to me but very soon it scares them away as they do not like to look in the mirror and see what is staring back.

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Gary David Currie

If I have climbed up the hill and you are afraid, I will do my best to guide you, encourage you and if all else fails I will come down and get you and we can go back up together and tackle the next hill. I hope you will do the same for me….

Watching people especially those I love run away from the fears causing themselves and other so much pain is the most difficult thing one can do and yet there is nothing that can be done until they are willing to face those fears. One must face their fears or their fears will face them. You cannot run as they are with you wherever you go. You can find many ingenious ways to trick yourself and pretend they do not exist, ways to temporally escape them but the inevitable while always happen. They will always be there biting at your heels and then up your legs and then they will cripple you so face them before this happens. The cost of not doing this is a wasted life, a life built on lies and a prison that only truth will be the key to setting you free. This is why I just face them in the first place.

Litany against fear…….

I must not fear.

 Fear is the mind-killer.

 Fear is the little-death that brings total obliteration.

 I will face my fear.

 I will permit it to pass over me and through me.

 And when it has gone past I will turn the inner eye to see its path.

 Where the fear has gone there will be nothing.

 Only I will remain.

I am many things but what I am the most is a passionate person. A friend of mine described me in this manner;

Michael Covarrubias

“Gary David Curie: The best word to describe you is passionate! You hold nothing back and you punctuate every word, every note, every breath with vitality and energy. Thank you for reminding me that life is for the living in the here and now, without forgetting to leave the best part behind for our children.”

I am all about truth no matter what it is, if it hurts or if it sets us free but I find so many are about running from the truth retreating into a fantasy world where they feel safe. This is all but a sad illusion to engage in. I will keep professing the truth, adjusting and learning along the way. Really what else is there?

So after my life being turned upside down I will find my balance again and carry on with what I can do and try not to dwell on what I have lost and those I cannot influence in any way. I will stand tall despite my faults and be the best person I can be knowing that my foundation is the truth.

I have amassed an impressive body of work on this journey and hope that it will stand the test of time;

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Gary David Currie

If I have played a part in your happiness, your anger, your frustration, your thoughts, your challenges, your triumphs. your awakening, your empathy, if I have caused you to rethink something or to teach something, if I have brought joy through my writing, my music or art or if I have caused you to take a stand on anything then I have achieved my goal.

I will continue to follow my motto and hope that others see the value in it I see….

Seek the truth always

Gary David Currie

Journal Entry #640

March 4th, 2012

My oldest son Zack Currie wrote and recorded this amazing song for his brother during a difficult time in his life. I am so proud of both of my boys as they shown themselves to be amazing human beings.

They are loyal, honest, hard working, caring, kind, courageous, loving, devoted, understanding just to name a few of their great traits. They will be a great catch for any woman that will appreciate them.

Enjoy this amazing song.

www.youtube.com/watch?v=EGlMiBt4o6E

A Brothers Cry

Seek the truth always

Gary David Currie

Journal Entry #639

February 19^th, 2012

This is my blog, my personal journey in life, what I am passionate about and my thoughts. I am not going to write the details of my life here but generalize. I find that writing and talking about things for me helps me get it off my chest and to go through the process of dealing with something. The issue I am dealing with right now can be seen all through my writing over the last 3 months as I express my pain and other emotions. I have 25 years of a deep emotional connection to deal with that one just cannot get over just like that. Funny how some have told me that is what I must do but the reality is far from it.

Emotional connections are the foundation for any relationship be it personal or global as we are emotional creatures. We define ourselves by how we feel about things. Over a long relationship those connections can run deep but will bounce all over the place as we change and the circumstances in life change.

I used to tell my kids;

All the things that you initially love about someone will eventually be the things that you hate about them.

The idea to a long lasting relationship and this is hard as it must be worked on daily is to recognize the process, to understand what is true and to not run on the emotion for the moment as it will always change. To maintain that deep connection one must see beyond where they are at, to always see the good in others and be willing to fight for them no matter what (I will qualify here to say that abuse and violence often exceed the no matter what clause).

If you do not allow the option to run away from a problem and be willing to face it and find a solution then you will have the rewards that go along with this commitment. If you leave the option open to leave or run away then you will eventually take it as there will come a point when things seem unbearable. Getting past this point is the greatest triumph you can accomplish.

Ask yourself;

What am I made of?

What do I stand for?

What am I willing to fight for?

Am I willing to change, learn and grow as a human being?

If you can do these things and the others are willing your success is greatly improved but if not you will fail as you have set it up that way. I have seen this time and time again both personally and from afar. Once you are willing to let go of that emotional connection even slightly then you head down that road and not the other way of fighting for things in life that are valuable.

Unfortunately this must work both ways or else it is doomed to fail.

Now to the tough part. When it does fail and you are the one who still holds onto that deep emotional connection it will take a long time to get over it as it will go against everything you stand for, everything you value and everything you have fought for. Time will be your friend.

Can one ever really get over it? I don’t think so as love is a powerful force, a powerful emotion even when it only goes one way and you can let go without giving up. The feelings you have I do believe will always be there but can be placed where they will do no harm. The idea is to not do damage to yourself while still maintaining your sense of worth and of course this is hard, very hard.

Hard to do but wise words.

Deep emotional connections are vital to our species and allow us to create great art and other things of beauty; they allow us to have the relationships we do and to care for each other but we cannot and must not control how others feel, how they deal with their emotions as all must be given freely or the connection is false and harmful.

Eventually the truth on any matter will prevail and what is right will win out so one if true to thyself must be patient while moving on from any connections that have been broken, easier said than done any day.

I don’t have the answers as each situation will be different I just know that I would rather have that emotional connection even if it ends than not have had it at all.

So as the old saying goes if you love something set it free and if it comes back it was meant to be. Corny but true..

Seek the truth always

Gary David Currie