Journal Entry #705

^{May 1oth}, 2013

It has been about 3 months since I have written in my blog. I have been out living life and finding love.
I have already covered so many issues and I will continue to do so but without love life is not worth living.

My story is amazing and all you need to know is that the end result is that I am in love, true love with the most amazing woman for me.

Without love we are empty we are not truly living and finding this love amidst all the chaos in life is a daunting task.

I will share the pictures that have brought me joy. I do this especially for my mother who can see them no other way.

I hope you find love as well. I also should get back into the rhythm of writing my blog as it is important to me. I have a brand new pro camera and I have been very busy with lots to share and many more speaking videos have been made.

Seek the truth Always

Gary David Currie

Journal Entry #704

February 2^nd, 2013

It certainly has been awhile since I have written on my blog, it seemed to be less important than other things I was doing in life but have no illusion I was very much engaging in life.

I have made several more videos played a great live show musically with my son, met many new people, worked hard at growing my business and enjoyed the area I live in.

I have photographed many fantastic things and events and I have plenty of new material to post on my blog.

MY agenda is stronger than ever and I am just using every medium at my disposal.

So for this post i will just offer a bunch of new pictures and quotes from me.
Thanks for reading what I offer.

Seek the truth always

Gary David Currie

Journal Entry #703

December 15^th, 2012

Yes I tend to say many of the same things over and over and that is because they are worth repeating. We all at times get to a position in our life’s surely more than once where we feel lost , paralyzed as to what to do, where to go, what direction to take and begin to question all that we are.

Personally I am working through this now once again..

I have to tell myself that a 25 year marriage and all that goes along with it, the highs and the lows and all in-between once ended is not just ended.. As it took years to build it will take years to move on from…

I think it is vital that one takes the time and does not rebound into something new to find familiar ground to replace what one has lost to redefine a life and to truly start fresh. I have done this…

One must enter the darkness, deal with the pain and come out the other side. I am doing this..

I wrote 2 songs one back in May 21^st which was a significant date for me as it was my wedding anniversary and exactly 6 months that my wife left. I needed to continue the healing process and a month later I wrote the second song.. Now one does not just find closure one just finds a place to fit things in while moving on.

So many really never truly know the pain they cause in others. For me I was treated like a teenage romance had ended but it was a 25 year marriage.. still 6 months after the songs were written I deal daily with the pain of loss but the point is I deal with it.

If we could only step into the mind, the emotions of another would we do what we do to each other, would it even come to the stages it does as our empathy would be forced upon us, there is no denying something once we know it.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=P6DAp46OQVE

“I’m Done” by The Freeman

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dei4cF6mHFo

“Avoid Me” unplugged by Gary David Currie of “The FREEMAN”.

Here are the lyrics to both songs and they can speak for themselves.

I hope this song and video inspire you to feel better about life and that you share this with others as you never know who might need it. There is so much pain in this world so many of us need a connection to help us move on and I offer this song.
Please share it, only takes a second and it may just help someone more than you know.
Sharing is vital for humanity and we truly need to get better at it.

If you possibly have good audio gear to listen to you will appreciate the song more.

I’m Done by Gary David Currie of The FREEMAN
Copyright 06/2012

Words and music by Gary David Currie

Pack your bags and head for home

I can see this life will only brings you pain

If you could reason for a day

 Step out of the darkness and see your way

Wipe those tears from your eyes

Take a long deep breath so you don’t fade away

If you could reason for a day

 Step out of the darkness and see your way

Corus

I’m done crying through this pain

I’m ready to see the word again

I wanna laugh

I wanna sing

I’m done crying through this pain

Step out the door the sun will shine again

Feel that breeze oh now tingling your skin

If you could reason for a day

 Step out of the darkness and see your way

Corus

“Avoid me”  
by Gary David Currie

Lyrics

She don’t look me in the eyes no more

Doesn’t walk beyond this crowded door

She dreads coming home at night

Even though I will not fight

Is she seeing someone new?

Is she still the girl I knew  anymore

Well I don’t want to lose her

But it’s just not up to me

She thinks that I’m a loser

Why did she marry me?

    Corus

Her eyes they avoid me

Her touch so cold

She looks at me with anger

As is I didn’t know

Her eyes avoid me

Would have gone to hell and back for her

Worked my fingers to the bone

But she can’t see beyond her feelings

To run away from our home

Break

Is the way life’s supposed to be?

Is this the way it ends

Is she lost or just afraid

Is she still the girl I knew  anymore.

Corus

Being human surely can be a painful process at times well in fact most of the time but it is all we got.

Seek the truth always

Gary David Currie

Journal Entry #702

December 6^th, 2012

I don’t expect people to understand what it is I do, why I do it and what drives me to do it simply because of the nature of what I am doing. The fact is most do not want to hear what I am offering. I realized as I started this and have accepted that I am going against the grain, taking a completely different path. My path is so different that those who feel there are taking a different path gather to fight what I offer.

I have accepted that I will be a target as those before me have accepted it and those that follow me will..

This will not deter me though  as I have thought this through, paid my price and it has been a heavy price but I will just keep on keeping on knowing that for me it is the right thing to do, to offer humanity to do my part.

I am building a body of work, a brand name that will hopefully have impact as time goes on. If it does not then I have not failed as I have fulfilled my journey.

I have succeeded in the greatest thing we can do for each other and that is standing up for my fellow human beings.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gNlZuFMYu-4

“Why I do what I do” by Gary David Currie

Seek the truth always

Gary David Currie

Journal Entry #701

November 30^th, 2012

I recently moved to Kamloops B.C. from Ontario to start my life over, a new place and new people. One of the things to do while healing is to get out as much as you can so I promised myself to try and get out and just explore the world. I am a documenter and I love documenting life. I do this through the many art forms I enjoy. This is how we share our life’s with others, capturing those moments in time.

One night in June I was walking down town on a Thursday night and I saw the sign for the burlesque troupe. I had an idea of what it was but truly I really did not know. I decided what the hell let’s go see it. $5.00 later I was in for a great night.

Of course every guy thinks that it is all about the stripping but being an artist I had the idea there would be art to it. I was wrong it is not about the stripping at all.

bur·lesque/bərˈlesk/

A parody or comically exaggerated imitation of something, esp. in a literary or dramatic work.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Burlesque   for more info on what it is..

It is about expressing one’s self through art and having an audience enjoy and be part of this expression.
I saw a great show with comedy, skits, magic and music. I loved it.

I laughed, I was enthralled, I was waiting with anticipation for the next act. What would it be?

I asked some questions later talked with some of the troupe and found out they were a group of people who were excited about what they were doing, loved to perform and were dedicated to what they were doing.

A bio given to me by;

Caroline
AKA Lizzie Borden

Kamloops Burlesque Monthly showcase was started in January 2011 by Vain Calamity Jane.   Vain Calamity Jane has now moved to Vancouver but still joins us as a special guest performer from time to time.  The KBMS is currently produced by Lizzie Borden and Corrie Tucker.   Since its inception the show has featured a huge variety of local and out of town talent.  We showcase Burlesque performers, singers, dancers, belly dancers, magicians, comedians, sideshow performers, and more!
Kamloops Burlesque was started to fill an empty niche in the Kamloops performing arts scene, and has been tremendously successful since the beginning.  Our show has a large support network of performers, an MC, musicians, and a backstage crew.  A typical show has a minimum of 2 dozen people working together to make the show happen.  Shows generally have 12-16 acts.
Local acts often come to us fully prepared, but we also have performers who offer classes to produce more awesome acts!  This means our wonderful little burlesque community is growing and becoming more dynamic.  Miss Coco Crème offers Burlesque Classes and Gilda Lily offers Chorus Girl Classes.
The Kamloops Burlesque Monthly Showcase focuses on fun and sexiness as well as empowerment.  Our performers come from all walks of life and all body shapes and sizes.  We aren`t focused on promoting the false expectations of perfection by the media.  Our show is about rocking what you got!
Kamloops Burlesque is produced with the amazing support of the Blue Grotto who provides our venue.

The Kamloops Burlesque face book page.

https://www.facebook.com/kamloopsburlesque?fref=ts

I salute you guys and thank you for the 2 evenings of pure enjoyment I have been privy to. Carry on in your greatness and keep growing. You have my support and respect.

A video I took of a performance, now it is on their FB page so you might have to join to see it but I guarantee it is worth it.
https://www.facebook.com/photo.php?v=4408449661191  

Kamloops Burlesque night November 9th 2012

I salute you in pictures. Here is a sample of the great night I enjoyed and please come out and support them. You will not regret the evening.

Seek the truth always

Gary David Currie

Journal Entry #700

November 28^th, 2012

I have written 700 blog posts in less than 3 years. An astonishing feat for someone deemed lazy, who did not like to work by some. I was writing everyday but a year ago my wife walked out the door and the last year has been a rough one, a year of reflection and healing so writing on my blog has taken a back seat. I still have written but have expressed my thoughts in other ways..

I would like to dedicate this post to my mom. My blog is growing. I have hit almost at this stage 685,000 views and it is growing daily as the work I did a couple of years ago is starting to get noticed.
I am a person who does not give up on what I see as important and this is important to me to get my message out there.

Now about 9 months ago I made a decision to leave the Peterborough, Ontario, Canada area and move to Kamloops B.C. about 4500 km away to start over.  It was incredibly hard packing up my life and moving on but probably the best decision I could have made based on the circumstances. I moved out to be with my oldest son and my youngest son and I drove across the country. So here we are getting on with our life’s making this our home.

This area is simply heaven on earth and I have spent the time to document it to share with all.

My mother is not on face book and she sucks at emails and I want to share my adventure with her so I put things in my blog for her as she reads it faithfully.

She is 82 years old and still has all her wits about her.

Now my mother is the one and only person who throughout my entire life who has not abandoned me. Sure we had our rough times but as my dad left when I was 8 years old my mother did her best to raise me and has always been there for me the best way she can.

The rest of my family besides my kids could not give 2 shits about me. I call her every week to see how she is and tell how we are doing. She was very excited for us to move out here and offered her full support.

The history does not matter as my mother has done the most important thing one can do right, she did not abandon me and for that I am eternally grateful.

So mom enjoy this new set of new pictures and share in my adventures, No matter what, you did a great job with me as I turned out amazing and I will pass that along to my kids best I can.

Hope you enjoyed these MOM

Seek the truth always

Gary David Currie

Journal Entry #699

November 27^th, 2012

Being recently single after being  married for 25 years has been an emotional roller coaster. I had thought I was married for life. That was my plan that is what my wedding vows were all about and I took them seriously even though my wife did not.

So a year later after grieving and taking some time to get myself together I am open to having new relationships. This is not something I wanted but it is reality and I am all about reality.

I have no problem being single as I like who I am very much but there is no good reason why I should be alone. I do want to share my life with another and share in their life..

I am not desperate for this and I will not just settle.. Now I am back in the world of dating I guess. Never was my thing to play these games one must play and I simply will not do it.

I have much to offer to the right person but I will not be for everyone….

I have run across this term that keeps popping up that really bugs me so I am addressing it here.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=73ThW_NAtQc

“Just friends you say” by Gary David Currie

Ok an accomplished writer in the field of dating told me this about what I presented here.. I found it interesting as I am not into these games people play.. 

“I completely agree with your idea  of what a friend is. I don’t consider many friends because they don’t meet my definition. When a girl says “I just want to be friends” she is romantically rejecting you. She figures she is saving your feelings by making that statement. The reason why women say it is because not all men can handle the truth, especially rejection, so they lash out by verbally assaulting the woman.”

I posted this for fun….

I see so many people trying to find themselves, so many lost…not willing to take a chance all the way through……

Seek the truth always

Gary David Currie

Journal Entry #698

November 24^th, 2012

I love getting out in the outdoors and saying what I have to say. What I offer is really not that complicated and it ultimately is a very simple message that people really don’t want to hear… Yes I repeat myself a lot and try and say  what I am saying in as many ways as possible but I am ok with that.

Eventually it will be heard because it is most likely the truth…

You don’t have to believe me or agree with me but I am confident that will not change what is probably true.

So I will keep offering it and adding to it as I go…

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fIkochUuF5M

Spirituality and Whu Whu equates to bullshit by Gary David Currie

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=S5PeWScmq_U

“Denial, humanity excels at it” by Gary David Currie

Seek the truth always

Gary David Currie

Journal Entry #697

^{November 6th}, 2012

Well it has been almost a year since my life was drastically changed. November 21^st will be the exact date and the roller coaster has been quit a ride.

I have had to make a huge change, face my fears and basically start my life over. So what have I learned in all of this.

The first thing is that the process of grieving is a must to get through anything, we must follow it, and accept it for things to get better, to heal and to move on in our lives. I have also learned that very few will do this; they think they do but they do not. I am talking about the 5 steps of grief, bargaining, denial, anger, depression and appetence.

On a personal level I embraced it and actually put it into motion to deal with the situation of my wife not wanting to be married to me anymore. I knew it was going to be painful and I offered her a choice and she chose to leave. This set in motion everything I had to deal with.. I knew the basic price I was going to pay and the most likely outcomes.. At this stage I am open about what happened but the details will be kept private…

Because I value and champion the truth to deny this would be against all I follow and promote so I accepted the process and believe me it was and still is incredibly painful not just for me but for others as well.

So I am out the other side, 6 hard months of getting through the painful part and getting to acceptance.

Now what I have learned is that almost everyone I have met or had been close to will not get past the stage of denial and bounce back and forth between the other stages of anger and depression. So many live their lives in these stages and then try and escape dealing with things through the many various escapes we have as humans.

Because I am not one to be fooled to play games with and I see past all these excuses to not deal with things I am a threat to many so I have lost many along the way. I have lost friends, acquaintances and most of all loved ones as they avoid me and blame me. Now play this out when all those involved are at the same level of avoidance and you can see how many of the problems as humans we create continue to not get dealt with.

In short so many are walking around in denial on so many things..

Secondly and related very few if any will face the truth, will face thier fears which is usually the cause of all the problems the root of the denial… This is huge and I see it everywhere..

When this happens people build their walls and don’t let others in but of course they cannot get out as well..

I have seen people willing to do terrible things to those they say they loved, to deny what will set them free and to continually blame and focus on the harmful things in life when the solution is easy to see if one is willing. I have written about these and if you want to and are seeking the truth you can scan through my many articles to find them or message me as I will talk with you.

Now again on a personal note it will be a hard task for me to find someone to be with as it will take someone very strong and secure in who they are to be with me. I have much to offer but most are not willing to accept it and to face life and reality on realities terms.

I have learned that people like me and we are few and far between are the last thing people want to deal with as many say they want the truth, honesty and openness until they actually have it..

I have seen so many give into their fears instead of facing them and the price they pay daily is enormous, I have seen this transpire into so many of the issues we have around the world. I have seen wilful ignorance rule the day.

I will continue to follow my path promote what I do and live my life to the fullest. I will offer what I see as probably being true and hope that others are willing to seek the truth as well.. I will accept the loss of those I have loved as best I can knowing I did nothing of significance to lose them and they have just ran away. I see this in so many running from the fears.. so much running, avoidance and escaping which of course is an illusion.

I truly see how we can get out of these daily messes we create but no one wants to listen and that is the key here no one wants to listen because if they do they will have to face what they want to avoid. Thing is you will face it either way on its terms or yours…

Fear is the mind killer….

If only people would just stop running and face things this would change everything.

“Denial of the truth and the actions that follow is humanities biggest problem.”

Gary David Currie

Seek the truth always

Gary David Currie

Journal Entry #696

October 24^th, 2012

At this stage in my life after writing about what I see as the core issues that lead us to harming each other I am trying to continually show the basics of reality.

As the title of my blog indicates reality is being hijacked and portrayed as something it is not.. While this is still a part of reality it is a part we must get past or we will keep making the same mistakes over and over.

There is nothing more that I can do but to keep doing this and have hope so that is what I do as there is no magic solution, no great powerful being coming to save the day it is up to us as individuals and as a species..

Please share…..

Seek the truth always

Gary David Currie