Journal Entry #638
February 17th, 2012
Life is full of ups and downs and often things happen to us beyond our control that require us to basically start over. This certainly can be terrifying especially if we have lost things, relationships or anything else we valued. While this is incredibly stressful it may be necessary as events have been building up that must be addressed.
You would be surprised how often this happens to people, we re-invent ourselves, we come through a tragedy or we just need a major change in our lives. I think this is vital to our survival and advancement as a species and as individuals, stagnate life’s breed apathy.
In essence we find out what we are made off, what we are capable off when we no longer are in a position to just wait for things to happen. Will it bring out the best in us or will we crumble under the pressure?
I find myself in such a position and while terrifying at times it certainly springs one into action. I have driven across the country (Canada) to get a fresh start. I will tell you waking up in a new town with no place to live, no job and responsibilities of a child to take care of will definitely put one into action.
This is where we also see what others are made of, will the people we meet be kind and help us? Society is set up based on your worth as a credit number and when all that is taken away people don’t know how to view you. Many think you are a failure and that if you have had to walk away from things in life that your value as a human being is diminished. The value of a man’s word is all we really have in the end and one just hopes that people can see this as the truly important thing.
I have also found that this basically in one form or another happens to us all but we forget this when things are good. This is where empathy towards others should be strong remembering how we needed that help when we were vulnerable.
I have no idea where life will take me, all I know is who I am and all that goes with this. I will say that the kindness of others has so far been noticed as this is what I had hoped for. If people are willing to look beyond the circumstances and see the human being behind them the world would be better off.
It is the fear of the unknown that scares us each moment we are afraid and this is a powerful motivator if used properly. If one realizes what they do know as the foundation to tackle the unknown then I can see amazing things happening.
As I sit here in a home where I am staying that my oldest son set up until we got settled I am reminded of the possibilities of this moment to start over while being afraid at the same time. One hopes that luck will prevail and that balance in the universe will swing ones way. Where I have moved to is breathtaking in its beauty. I look out the window and see the mountains close by and a new town full of possibilities. As I do this the reasons I am here continue to plague me as I hope that the loss that put all of this into action will somehow be found. My emotions are in full gear right now in so many directions and trying to balance them out is as hard as starting over in fact it is all part of the process.
I must concentrate on what I do have the ones who are there and the skills I have developed over my lifetime to start over. I am not the only one starting over in this situation and to see how my sons have handled themselves during this process has been amazing. I am always worried for them as they are my responsibility and the ones I of course love so I want the very best for them. Right now the best is to learn how to go through this, to develop a skill set that will serve them well in life. All I am experiencing they are as well. So I am fortunate to know that I am not alone in this as well as those who have offered support from a distance. In the end though I am the one responsible for what will happen and I can never forget this. The burden and the triumph will be mine to claim as it will be for my sons and anyone who rises above their station in life.
One must take an attitude of us against the world and hope that the world will not be cruel.
Seek the truth always
Gary David Currie
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