
Journal Entry #629
December 15thth, 2011
The hardest thing in life in my opinion is doing what is right, valuing the truth and have the integrity to stick with this.
Part of staying the course is to realize that one makes mistakes and that one can be wrong on anything and that truth will always show up and find its way through the lies. Often we think we have the truth or that we are doing what is right but as we look deeper peeling away the layers of deception and lies when we do get there it is often not what we want it to be or think it is. It is our fears that hold us back and fears are usually based on what might be not what actually is.
“We must face our fears or our fears will face us.”
Gary David Currie
In my life staying the course has cost me in so many ways but I realize that if I give in to what is not true and give up on seeking the truth with openness and a desire to face the fears I would just be living a lie. The layers of the onion at times are so thick it will seem impossible to peel them all away but if it is of value it must be done and it will always be of value because it is your life. I can think of nothing more important than living a life based on the truth.. All else will be false and fake…..
We as a species have a built in fight or flight response, we want to avoid danger and pain and at times it is important to run but often we run when we should be fighting. We need to face and fight what we fear or else it will consume us. That is the beauty of the truth as it will not go away or change because we want it to but once we recognize what is actually true not what we think is true the freedom this offers is wondrous.
I hurts me to watch others run from the truth or to think they have found the truth on any matter when I can see and again I may be wrong on any of this but when I can see they are just beginning to peel away the layers of the onion. They must keep going as I must and seek out each new truth.
Then and only then can we achieve happiness, a fulfilled life and peace of mind. It is not things that bring this about and while our achievements in life are very important the true achievement is to accept this process and enjoy the journey..
We must forgive ourselves and face our fears to move on. Often we reject the very things that will help us on this journey as those things or people may have brought us to close to facing our fears and then we run to a more comfortable place but have no illusion those fears will always be there until we face them and those we have rejected may have been the key in bringing us closer to a better life.
I must stay the course even when it hurts even we I see others running away from the truth because if I do not I will not be true to myself. In the end what is right and true will prevail. I usually see that the more people use me as their reason for what has gone wrong in life the closer we are getting to the truth as anger and blame are defence mechanisms. I will take this from others and stay the course.
I am by no means even close to perfect but I do believe I have one quality at this time that is worthy to respect and for me to profess. I am willing to change, accept my faults and see the good in others even when they do not see it. I am willing to take responsibility for my actions and at times when it is necessary call others on this as well as to do nothing less would be cheating them of a life based on the truth. A life based on the truth is a life worth living.

We often do not see what is important in life what we should value and we take for granted these things. These will not end well as each moment we should value what is important, our families and a better life for all humanity.
We tend to focus on superficial and fake things that we think have meaning and are important but these will surely be shown for what they are. If you have someone of value to you look for the good in them. See beyond where they are and as my son says focus on the good things and the good times. We all have struggles and it is so easy to blame others for things in life but this will not move us towards a good life. Where you are at is only temporary and no matter how bad things may seem the solution is to face things head on and conquer your fears, your real fears and not follow the easy path because there really is no easy path in life. Surround yourself with people that truly care about you not people who make you feel good for the moment. Without struggles nothing accomplished is of value..
So stay the course but that course must be based on the truth and what is right even when it is hard and you want to run it will be worth it to do what is right not what feels comfortable. This is what makes a life worth living. Don’t give up on what should be right and important….
There are plenty of vultures out there to pull you in the wrong direction so they can get what they need for the moment but really they are not on course..
There should be nothing more important than doing what is right not what is easy…..
Seek the truth always
Gary David Currie