Journal Entry #703
December 15th, 2012
Yes I tend to say many of the same things over and over and that is because they are worth repeating. We all at times get to a position in our life’s surely more than once where we feel lost , paralyzed as to what to do, where to go, what direction to take and begin to question all that we are.
Personally I am working through this now once again..
I have to tell myself that a 25 year marriage and all that goes along with it, the highs and the lows and all in-between once ended is not just ended.. As it took years to build it will take years to move on from…
I think it is vital that one takes the time and does not rebound into something new to find familiar ground to replace what one has lost to redefine a life and to truly start fresh. I have done this…
One must enter the darkness, deal with the pain and come out the other side. I am doing this..
I wrote 2 songs one back in May 21st which was a significant date for me as it was my wedding anniversary and exactly 6 months that my wife left. I needed to continue the healing process and a month later I wrote the second song.. Now one does not just find closure one just finds a place to fit things in while moving on.
So many really never truly know the pain they cause in others. For me I was treated like a teenage romance had ended but it was a 25 year marriage.. still 6 months after the songs were written I deal daily with the pain of loss but the point is I deal with it.
If we could only step into the mind, the emotions of another would we do what we do to each other, would it even come to the stages it does as our empathy would be forced upon us, there is no denying something once we know it.
“I’m Done” by The Freeman
“Avoid Me” unplugged by Gary David Currie of “The FREEMAN”.
Here are the lyrics to both songs and they can speak for themselves.
I hope this song and video inspire you to feel better about life and that you share this with others as you never know who might need it. There is so much pain in this world so many of us need a connection to help us move on and I offer this song.
Please share it, only takes a second and it may just help someone more than you know.
Sharing is vital for humanity and we truly need to get better at it.
If you possibly have good audio gear to listen to you will appreciate the song more.
I’m Done by Gary David Currie of The FREEMAN
Copyright 06/2012
Words and music by Gary David Currie
Pack your bags and head for home
I can see this life will only brings you pain
If you could reason for a day
Step out of the darkness and see your way
Wipe those tears from your eyes
Take a long deep breath so you don’t fade away
If you could reason for a day
Step out of the darkness and see your way
Corus
I’m done crying through this pain
I’m ready to see the word again
I wanna laugh
I wanna sing
I’m done crying through this pain
Step out the door the sun will shine again
Feel that breeze oh now tingling your skin
If you could reason for a day
Step out of the darkness and see your way
Corus
“Avoid me”
by Gary David Currie
Lyrics
She don’t look me in the eyes no more
Doesn’t walk beyond this crowded door
She dreads coming home at night
Even though I will not fight
Is she seeing someone new?
Is she still the girl I knew anymore
Well I don’t want to lose her
But it’s just not up to me
She thinks that I’m a loser
Why did she marry me?
Corus
Her eyes they avoid me
Her touch so cold
She looks at me with anger
As is I didn’t know
Her eyes avoid me
Would have gone to hell and back for her
Worked my fingers to the bone
But she can’t see beyond her feelings
To run away from our home
Break
Is the way life’s supposed to be?
Is this the way it ends
Is she lost or just afraid
Is she still the girl I knew anymore.
Corus
Being human surely can be a painful process at times well in fact most of the time but it is all we got.
